Letter Series #2: Realign your Self with your Soul

The bud
stands for all things,
even for those things that don't flower,
for everything flowers, from within, of self-blessing;
though sometimes it is necessary
to reteach a thing its loveliness,
to put a hand on its brow
of the flower
and retell it in words and in touch
it is lovely
until it flowers again from within, of self-blessing;
-Galway Kinnell

Date: 1 October 08, 1:10pm, on Richmond bound BART train

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Beloved,

What is troubling you today?  Why are you suddenly so irritable?  Is it lack of sleep?  (I know you are still exhausted and need more rest.) Or is it the heat and humidity of this day.  So unexpected, so bad for your mood and temperament.  Was it the three full-figured sistas waiting for the train?  I know you were judging them.  Were they judging you? Should it matter? You felt disgusted.  Why?  Was it the woman on the #53 bus who threw a wrapper out the bus window, then proceded to get on her cell phone and talk loud enough for all to hear?  Why did that trouble you, mi amor?  Why are you letting your ego gain ground?  You are in disharmony and need to realign your Self with your Soul!

Maybe your need of rest, medicine, and lack of exercise is the problem.  Could it be a mood swing?  Whatever it is, you must do what is necessary to take care.  Remember the article in Yoga Journal that talked about how stress can have a negative impact on your brain--alzheimer's and other functions that decrease your ability, your brain's ability, to be healthy is at risk when you allow stress to build.  Yet maybe here I am digressing.

The woman you met on the way out of the BART station, who asked about your hair while telling you about her hair woes--not being able to find work because she'd dyed it blonde, etc.  That short connection was intended.  And when you told her she was beautiful, to allow herself to be herself, I felt your spirit lift and your agitation or whatever you'd been feeling melt away.

You and I are connected, RoRo, so whatever you feel, I feel.  But there needs to be balance, balance and harmony, ok, mi hermana?

Please find some time today to just let go.  Close your eyes, close your mind and let your thoughts pass through you while you focus on breathing, being still and being present.  We both need it, so let's do something really good for ourselves today, eh?  I love you, girl!

Reading the article about the deity, Kali, you picked up on the writer's message that:

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 "...turning into Kali in daily life often means turning into aspects of yourself that you normally don't have access to, a power that can reach outside the conventional to become bold and fierce--fierce in love, fierce in ecstasy, fierce in your willingness to stand up to the demons in yourself and others.  You don't become free just by knowing when to say no, fighting for what is right, and engaging with the fiercer forms of grace."

Isn't that just what you needed to read at the time you read it?  See how the Universe works, girl?  The Divine puts words and people in your path that can help to alleviate your pain, anxiety, funky mood.  Your doubts. Your fears.  Give thanks and praises for that, RoRo!